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Rumour has it

so I heard he bought a house in the city I do not want to live in. The house he's been wanting to buy for the past years, the one I've been delaying since I do not want to spend the rest of my life in that city. 
The  place where he tried convincing me to go to Grad school, the place where he'de research on how I can get licence and work there. 
I wonder who's gonna the lucky girl who'll get to be under the same roof as he is. I bet she doesn't leave wet towels on the floor which he always complained I did. I bet she doesn't leave dirty laundry around the house after he's already done doing laundry for the day. 

She's probably so perfect that her feet are always warm and she doesn't even have  to shove it under his shirt to have it warm it up.
Heck! She's probably so amazing that she doesn't even demand attention while he's working or playing fortnite with Matt... She might even be older, more mature, confident, so smart and successful that she's not intimidated by his colleagues and infact fit right in and gets along with them just fine. Maybe she even love their posh sunday brunch parties unlike me! 
They're probably so perfect and noone would even question their relationship as the way they did ours.

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