Perhaps I go about this the wrong way. All I know is I am drowning in my own emptiness inside of me. The void keeps getting bigger. I dive into distractions coz I cannot bear the pain of reality. I keep seeing you in every dream, begging you to stay. The first time you appeared in my dream after your passing, you smiled at me - the very smile I'de do anything to keep. I told you that you died, you left me. You told me how silly I was to think you'de do that to me. You said you promised to stay and you weren't one to not keep your word. I woke up to find you were still gone. I wanted to fall back asleep to let you know I did not hold it against you that you had to leave me, I want to assure you that I love you nevertheless, nothing you do could ever make me love you any lesser. Even if your absense cause my entire being to shatter into pieces of nothingness. In every dream, I would initially try to distract you from the fact that you died and if that fails, I go on to pers...